Causal Sex is Dead 4 me (I think)

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Hey Kids!

When it comes to my favorite things, I think about good books, great TV (Like BBC's Sherlock), movies, sports, good food and S-E-X!! I love some good sex.  And my many followers (all 2 of you) will agree that I do enjoy a good hookup or "causal sex" if we are being PC.  Well I think I may be getting too old for it now.  

I mean don't get me wrong this doesn't mean that I'm going to stop having it, just means that I've realized that it doesn't satisfy me like it once did.  I was laying in bed spooning with my latest hookup...I still can't believe I've entered the age where I let hookups stay over...and while they were sleeping soundly in my arms I couldn't help but wonder why in the hell I wanted to feel more than what I was currently feeling.  Most people who engage in causal sex do so to feel something for a moment...whether it's a great orgasm, the touch or feel of someone else's body or having your body feel their touch, etc. there is something during that time that we all want to feel.  For me I want to feel a good or great orgasm and the touch of someone else.  Once I've felt that I'm good...and they can LEAVE!! But while I was laying there listening to him sleep I realized that there is another feeling I'd like to start feeling and that's emotions.  

Now those of us that are experts in the hooking up field know that the only emotion you should be feeling when hooking up is Horny!  lol And while being able to compartmentalize is an essential skill that every serial hookup specialist should process, it is also what takes away the opportunity for anything deeper to happen.  I think that's how I end up pissing off a lot of people I've slept with.  I've become so great at compartmentalizing when it comes to the guys I meet to hookup with that I tend to run off or don't even pay attention to the ones that want something more with me.  Like the mofo I was spooning the other day.  He has expressed interest before in getting to know me better and informing me that he has feelings, etc.  But all I see in him and can see in him is a cute guy with a nice hot cock that is good in bed.  But I do want to feel more with someone else, I know that now.  But I'm afraid that I don't know how to do that anymore or maybe I'm afraid.  Either way I think the other night helped me realize it may be time to start doing less hookups (which I love) and more dating (which I hate).  Only time will tell I guess.  I do know these hookup/dating apps and sites are really starting to bore the fuck out of me.  But that's a whole other topic.

I've got to ask...what are some of your favorite things?

First Date in 2 years

Hey Kids!!

So I had a date for the first time in two years back in October.  I met this guy on Growlr and we hit it off.  We immediately shared interests in hobbies, sports and in some cases other guys we thought were hot lol.  Well we decided to meet for a drink and some video games at Dave and Busters one night.  It went well and I enjoyed myself and was pleasantly surprised that he was even cuter in person than his pictures.  We ended the night with a hand shake and went our separate ways.  So after a successful meet and greet I decided that we should have a real date.  So I asked him if he'd like to go on a date that following Friday.  He said "yes, I was hoping you'd ask" So we made plans to meet for dinner and a movie.  Well on the way to the date I got in my car accident.  I texted him to let him know I had gotten in a wreck.  Now I was expecting him to say something like "oh ok well let me know it turns out ttyl." you know something on those lines.  BUT he wanted to meet me at the wreck scene and offer to give me a ride home.  To me that says "this is a nice guy." So he came and I dealt with the police and the other person involved with the wreck.  Our original date plans were messed up but he still wanted to take me to get something to eat and have some drinks.  So we went to a nice place close to my home and had some drinks, food and good conversation.  He was really making me feel better about the whole wreck thing.  So after we left he took me home and I invited him inside for a drink and to watch Sports Center (something we both enjoy).  Now you know to hot horny men can't be alone late at night without jumping on top of each other...lol...and that's what we did.  The kissing was great his body felt good and I could tell he was extremely attracted to me as much as I was him so what could go wrong?  Well the sex was not good!  I mean NO BUENO! He did this dry humping thing on top of me like he was riding me like and I immediately thought I was back in high school with some drink cheerleader who was afraid to have sex because of disappointing the Lord.

He didn't even bust.  He made sure I busted, which is usually a good thing but the way it happened was again NO BUENO!  Now usually that's a deal breaker for me...but I decided I needed to give it another shot to make sure it wasn't anything I was doing wrong.  So we met again a week later at my place to watch the Texans game and ended going to have lunch and we spent the whole afternoon together.  We did fool around and all and he came this time but again it was just ok.  And I don't have or do "OK" sex!  Yeah I know that sounds very Ricky like from "Noah's Arc" but if you've ever had sex with me you know I'm telling the truth.  So eventually we stopped talking.

I just hate that the first guy I took an interest in getting to know other than just a hookup ended with a car accident and whack sex.  And folks keep in mind my idea of whack sex is probably good sex to other people so don't think I'm speaking poorly about this guy.  I just know that it wouldn't of worked out because of the sex.  When I'm with someone I want to be with that person and only that person and one of the ways that happens is if certain things are place to keep my attention on him and our relationship and one of the things that does that is good sex.  Great sex will get you a mink in the morning ;-)

So I gotta ask...Is bad sex a deal break for you?

Break Over!

Hey Kids!

I'm back!  LOL I'm just going to pretend that I was missed.  It's interesting how slow the years can seem at times but when you look back over them you realize how quickly time really does fly.  I can't believe it's been two years since I last posted on here.  I mean I started this post when I turned 30 and now I am 32.  And there has been so much that's happened since then.  Let's drive right in there and get the tea I know you all are just craving.

Well for starters I finally got out of that middle school I was teaching.  It was time to go.  One thing I've learned as a man in his 30s is knowing your worth.  I worked at that place since I was 28 and when I first entered there I knew that I was a good teacher but like Walter Payton so nicely put it "When you're good at something, you'll tell everyone.  When you're great at something, they'll tell you."  Well guess what turns out people started telling others that I was great at what I did and while it was very encouraging it was also very humbling.  You see another thing I've learned is that not everyone is going to be happy for you.  People will smile in your face and talk badly about you behind your back just for the simple fact there are so many people who talk positively behind your back.  This is something I had to realize was happening during my first couple years at that school.  So I decided to stay in my lane and keep to myself and focus on doing what was best for students.  Turns out that was the best decision I could make.  The school changed administration and the new principal wanted to reward me for my hard work by offering me a promotion heading into the 2013-2014 school year.  I turned her down.  I turned her down for two reasons.  1. Because I would no longer be a contracted employee and that would leave to much open opportunities for her to take advantage of my services and I could be terminated without any kind of compensation if something like the money ran low in the budget to pay me, etc.  2. I was still very upset with how my colleagues and I were treated by the previous administrative staff and was ready to leave the school altogether.  Turns out I would end up being there another school year anyway and the principal was able to get free work out of me as a result.  I won't go into any more detail about that situation I'll just end with this.  After I turned her down once she never offered me promotions to any of the available positions she had available I would of been great for.  But she had no problem assigning me to do administrative duties in addition to my teaching duties.

BUT GOD!!! I am now at a High School and I love it.  I am teaching a subject I am not all that familiar with...Audio/Video Production...while I know how to edit and create videos I'm not on the level that someone would need to be on to properly teach this in a high school setting.  But thankfully I'm not having to teach any advance courses of the class and I still know way more than my students, who have been dumped into the class.  But like I told my little new teacher that I mentor this year, I'm a teacher, I went to school to be a teacher and I love being an educator therefore I can teach anything I put my mind too!

I had to get a grown up vehicle when my truck was totaled this past October.  I loved my 2003 Explorer.  I miss not having a car payment but I must say I do enjoy the bells and whistles my new ride has.  Those seat warmers on a cool morning heading into work is wonderful way to start the morning lol.

I also finally successfully defended my Proposal for my dissertation last month.  So that's exciting news.  Now I only have one more step and then I will officially be Dr. MJ

I hope that I haven't lost my 2 followers and hope they will get back to reading my blog and spreading the word.  I will start writing more.  I know I promised this before but I mean it this time.

So I've got to ask...what's it gonna take for you to love me again :-)