The quote above speaks so much to me. I have been sitting around all day long literally dreading going back to work tomorrow. I have been off work for two weeks for the holidays. I have done literally nothing productive my entire vacation....so of course I LOVED IT!!
*side bar*
If I say literally too much it's because I've been catching up on my Parks and Recreation on netflix (it's a great show!)
But anyway back to greatness and destiny that I know you are dying to read more about...right? (Crickets)
So I was wondering why I was getting so sad about going back to work. I mean I did just have a long vacation. I now know what I need to do. Its time for me to start doing something that makes me excited about getting up and going to work in the morning. I know this sounds like a cliche but it's the truth. I have so many friends who love what they do for a living, so many who like what they do and even some who tolerate it enough that they've grown to secretly love what they do. Well, I think the reason why I'm so miserable with what I'm doing is because it's not what I've been destined to do. Let me explain...
I remember a job interview I went on last year and one of the interviewers asked me "So Dr. Glenn, based on your resume and your accomplishments and qualifications I really don't see you planning to be here that long if we hire you. I mean it seems like you are planning to do other big things, what do you plan on doing in the next couple years?" Now to be fair I was taken back that he called me Dr. Glenn because my resume does state that I am finishing my final requirements for my doctorate, not that I have completed it. I remember thinking that that was an odd question or a different way to put the "where do you see yourself..." question that's usually asked.
But after careful consideration I have to admit that I have put myself in this miserable state. I've become a little complacent with teaching. I've done it so long that I can literally do it in my sleep (seriously one time I fell asleep one day at work after a long night out and my classroom ran like clock work...lol). But sometimes its scary to venture and go after the things that you really want. I want a new job and I want one ASAP. I've worked so hard to gain additional certifications and education to put myself in a better position. And I hate to admit but I've subconsciously been waiting for something to fall into my lab like the teaching positions I've held here in Houston have done.
Although I may not have put myself out there like I should, to get a job I really wanted, I did work as hard as possible in my previous jobs. To the point of exhaustion and extreme stress coupled with all the things going on in my personal life. However, it led to hospital and doctor visits and eventually to being referred to a psychiatrist to monitor me for anxiety and depression medication. Also, I've allowed my dislike for my job to give me excuses to not hanging out or doing anything not work or school related during the week. Its put strains on friendships, family relationships and possible romantic interests or just being interested in having romantic interests at all. I'm not going to flood this post with excuses I'm just giving a little insight.
But I do feel like I am destined for greatness in a different capacity other than teacher. It's time for me to step out of my comfort zone and stop sitting around and feeling sorry for myself, envious of other's successes and count my blessings and get back to the me that would plan, fight and go after what I wanted. I've been doing it all my life. It's time to do as the quote says and let the hardships I've faced in the past prepare me for my extraordinary destiny.
So I've got to ask...Are you fulfilling your destiny?
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